I
have had the impulse multiple times to write my thoughts on this subject but
because I view this to be so personal I have chosen not to. The problem is that I am seeing so many dear
associates of mine who are struggling to understand current standings within
our church that I feel I have to say something.
To
question is human nature. Whether you
are of the same denomination or not we all question what our thoughts are in
different aspects of life. Why do we do
this? Because it’s part of growth. Even
as a child “why” is a word that comes as an automatic question to come out of
little ones. We need to know why so we
can understand how things work. This can
be a challenge when it involves others (whom we love) and their personal
beliefs. We don’t want them to pull away
from us because we love them.
I
have often heard through my life that as members of the Mormon (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) faith that we are blind
followers. We are told what to do and we
do it. To say that that is not true
would be a lie. I do think that there
are some who don’t really know where they stand on certain topics within the
church but they have to hold on to the little thread of faith that they have in
knowing what the church brings to their lives.
I have to admit that there have been times in which I have done this
because faith is a process in which knowledge comes.
I
have questioned many things within the church that I belong, and at times I
have found that I had to lean on my husband’s testimony to get me through. Mine just wasn’t strong enough to weather the
storm of hatred. But what I found, is that,
for me, questioning was personal.
You
see, I needed to know for myself what was right. So many opinions are like the game of
telephone; by the end you are left with nothing but a mess. So how does one get answers then? Oh you can look to opposing articles if
that’s what you’re looking for; or you could look to those who align with your
beliefs for support and that might work for you. What it comes down to, is that you will find
what you are looking for… but what if the answer isn’t something you’re looking
for? For me I had to have the courage to
kneel. I had to be humble enough to get
on my knees at a time in which I wasn’t even sure that there was a God and
ask. I had to take that seemingly simple
step to go to my Father in Heaven. But
what if I didn’t get an answer? What if
I didn’t like the answer that I was given?
These were daunting and scary ideas, but isn’t that what faith is… work
on things unseen? If I didn’t get an
answer right away I kept praying.
This
might seem so innocent minded or simple that it could never work. But I can promise you it can and does. Just like I am waiting for my kids to come to
me so I can help them, so is your loving Heavenly Father waiting for you. I know this to be true. So why don’t you give it a try?